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eLLoooo eVeryboDy… !!!

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wondering why i haven’t been uPdating this boRing bLog ??

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(keke feels like advertisement now)

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kami sudah berpindah ke

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http://chinmeilee.blogspot.com

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do drop me some comments there =)

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p/s : it is still under renovation so pleeeeease be patient

i went to a place called Victoria Institution yesterday…

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for the VI Carnival 2007 of course =)

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Victoria Institution - A friendly School… was the theme i guess..

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i get to meet old friends.. it feels really great… although i was there only for a short time..

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but still, that place is a place full of memories..

both sweet and bitter…

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i spent 2 years of my form 6 in that school..

no doubt, in the first place i disliked that school. now that i left that institution, i’m beginning to miss it..

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miss the stress-free life i had..

miss eating with yeen, pei gie and.. during recess..

miss attending miss teo’s class (my economics teacher, whom influenced me so much, including why i took a degree in Economics now)..

miss being late for lines…

miss rushing for tuition after school..

and the burger outside the gate =)

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back then, life was fun. i was free from responsibilities, and i could concentrate 100% on my studies.

thinking about it now, sometimes i wonder whether i’ve made the right choice to be free from responsibilities. i guess i actually let go chances of learning new things, and knowing new people…

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if i were to turn back time, i wonder whether i’ll make a different choice..

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i really miss times in school…

everything has changed now- the people, the school, the culture (not only VI, BBGS as well..)

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but yesterday is history, no point regretting it. i guess i still have time to change things in uni now, right? =)

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p/s: i’m changing to blogspot soon, i will keep u guys updated! =)

today, i’ve raised my voice when i was talking to my mummy…

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it always happen… when mummy asked me something, i’ll answer in a rude and impolite way. and i’ll regret after that, and yet i won’t apologise. ego in me, i guess.

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but today, i can truly feel that my words have hurt her deeply….

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but still, i didn’t apologise, and just kept quiet…

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i once read xandra ooi’s column "sights and sounds"- she wrote that we often forget that our mother, is also a normal human being like us, and has her own feelings…

just because they seldom show their emotions in front of us, it doesn’t mean they doesn’t have it. it’s always tougher to hide their emotions than to just express it, and yet they choose not to hurt us, the child.

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but their children (like me), often neglected that, and treat her as if she doesn’t have feelings. and don’t realise every single words spoken will hurt her directly…

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i sometimes wonder whether she’ll cry herself to sleep…

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but still, they will not hold any grudge against their children, and act like normal the next day, although deep inside they are hurt. and being her daughter, i will still be angry about some stupid small matter which is nothing, NOTHING at all compared to my mum…

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i believe many of us treat our mother differently than our friends. maybe we’ll even treat and talk to our friends in a better manner compared to when we’re talking to her….?

i dunno about u guys but, i’m certainly doing that…

no wonder people keep telling me i look like those rebelious child…

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i’m sorry, mummy…

continuation from yuan lih’s latest post - never say never

(terpromote ur blog here tim hehe)

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maybe it’s my turn to list down things that i did, which i thought i’d never do in the first place.

1. highlight my hair (and kesiannyer, turn out to be a disaster)

2. apply make-up (this one sometimes only la, cause lazy + dunno how to apply, guess i have to practice more ~_~)

3. spend so much money on shopping (no comment and shouldn’t comment =p )

4. study in local uni (i’ve always hated the education system here, but still i ended up in UM, n will still be for the next 2 years)

5. blogging also! (so far i’m not addicted to it……. yet)

6. wear sexy baju and skirt (aiyah this one also seldom wear what, say what!)

7. change my line back to maxis after i’ve changed to digi once

8. working part-time while studying

9. actually banyak lagi, but last but not least……. pak toh with mr oh!    =p

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it’s like when u r growing up, u realised u were actually so silly when u r young. for example, i use to think girls who wear sexy baju are bad girls. the fact is: NO, they’re hot! (please ar, i’m not talking about myself =p )

so actually no harm trying new stuff, right? i actually wanted to put clubbing and drinking in my list too, but so fast i’ve never done those, so still can’t add it in yet, hehe!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

some complain that they find it difficult to post a comment here, and asked me to change to blogspot. i actually have an account in blogspot but i’m very very very the malas to continue, i just register for the purpose of using my famous name - chinmeilee =) takut later got people ciplak my beautiful name and use mar =p

so when i’m hardworking enough to change, i’ll inform kamu orang yang sudi membaca blog aku yang tidak berkualiti, ya? *muacks*

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ops, my main point = for the meantime if whoever wants to post a comment : click on sign in, then refresh the page again. after that probably can gua =)

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i have a ‘dangerous’ personality.

why would i say so ?

people often misunderstood me as someone who doesn’t know how to keep a secret. ok, i might not be very good at it-lah, but i truly and clearly know what i should and what i shouldn’t tell sometimes. yeah, sound a bit perasan but…… dunno la~ it hurts lo sometimes, sigh…

note: secret means when someone told me something and ask me not to tell anyone. excluding things which i don’t know that i shouldn’t tell.

and the main point is i was a PRS (Pembimbing Rakan Sebaya) back in secondary school. one of our main motto : Must Keep Secret la !

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hmmm… can’t really blame anyone la actually. perhaps my giler-giler and playful personality have caused these perceptions on me gua.

or maybe i’m actually not that good in keeping secret gua. maybe i ter-pandang tinggi at myself kot. sigh.

u know what i REALLY wanna do now…

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i want to find this saloon…

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and burn it…

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WAAAAAAAAaaaaaAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAA….~

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it’s not really her fault, my stupid decision…

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i just wanna shave my head, or go back to yesterday, and i’d choose not to touch my hair, at all… =(

…. RED…!!!! O.o

(as if i dye my whole head like that)

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yes ladies and gentlemen, for the first time in 20 years, i had my first highlighted hair, and it’s reddddd!!!! go Man Unitedddddd! RED DEVIL RULEzzZzZ…~ (berpura-pura semangat Man U, actually to make myself feel better)

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i’m so not used to it… visited the salon today, thought of having my hair trimmed, but suddenly hati gatal go and ask about highlighting hair… and yeah, she suggested red…

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well, it has been some time since i wanted a change, so no big deal what, hor?

i’ve been having the same hairstyle for the past 20 years (erm, maybe not the short hair i had in standard 5 *disaster*)

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although it looks extremely red and not as nice as i thought, but somehow i never regretted my decision! =) (suddenly wondering whether it’s CNY now..)

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at least i had the courage to change. *wink*

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applause anyone? =D

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oh no… how am i going to work tomorrow…………….

was browsing through friendster (what else can i do other than browsing through friendster)… suddenly i realised when someone enters college/ university, eventually they’ll mix with new bunch of friends (everyone also know this la, need u to tell meh chin mei lee)…

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but it doesn’t mean old friends are forgotten =)

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just that sometimes because we study in different surrounding and with different people, we tend to have less topics to talk about…

but no matter what, i still think secondary school friends are those whom really understand you, because we all grew up together, we know each other’s weaknesses and strength very well…

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still, i’ll definitely be happy for those who found their true friends in varsity…

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sometimes i hope i’ll find one too…

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the boy is going for his first job interview tomorrow- wishing u all the best ya =) i’m sure u can do it… *hugs*

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chin mei lee is bored, stayed at home today… and wondering what to do tomorrow (what is this, complain when u r busy and when u r not… bedebah betul)

cis betul…

everyone got this special post to wish lim yit yeen happy birthday, and i only wrote a small paragraph! -_-" but it’s the thought that counts, right? i still love u as much as they do yeen *muacks* =)

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it had been a tiring 5 days for me.. been working on friday till sunday, then busy preparing for 2 important people’s birthday, hehe finally everything’s done. and hopefully i did make them happy… it feels so good when u see them smiling.. at least what u’ve done is worth the effort (alah talk like i’ve done a lot… but for my standard considered very hebat addy!)

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and i’m officially declared bankrupt! ~_~ been spending like some water tank yang sudah pecah hehe… anyways it doesn’t matter (look who’s talking). my principle: don’t feel guilty about spending money as long as u spend it happily. why worry about saving so much? as long as i’ve saved sufficient amount incase i’m admitted into hospital, it doesn’t matter to me.. hehehe (ajaran sesat) we are so young, can come out "pok sat" anytime~    =p

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holiday is ending so soon. so fast…. it’s like i’ve done nothing, especially in accomplishing "missions" in my to-do list. but i’ve done more things beyond my list, hehe! gosh, can’t imagine how i’m gonna get up when new sem begins ~_~ and i still wanna go bukit tinggi, BADLY! kawan-kawan yang dicintai, dengar tak jeritan batinkuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu…~

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i feel happy and beginning to "found" the old mei lee that i used to be nowadays. maybe with the presence of some old friends, my life is colourful back again! =)

ops…

just realised i haven’t been updating my blog for quite some time (actually only about a week time hehe)…

FINALLY been quite busy these 2 weeks, finally felt that i am not alone anymore.. hahahha i loooooooove holidays, when everyone comes back. from US ke, indonesia ke, kedah ke, penang ke… wah it’s like some big family gathering! happier than chinese new year! muahahahaha *sudah mula merepek*

finally get to go out (= shopping), plan different things for different people, and most importantly stop complaining about being bored at home! ~_~ and do something productive by contributing unlimited cash to the country’s economy (memang pure economics student)

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office politics is killing me.

it scares me so much, even before i got my proper full-time job. i guess what’s so tough about working is not about the job afterall, it’s mostly about the "human element" u deal with. well, process of growing up again i suppose. maybe studying is not that bad afterall. *start seeing light at the end of the tunnel* (muka penuh harapan looking up the sky)

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HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED YEEN !!!

i love u, and so does everyone else! may all ur wishes come true, and stay friends even after we got married okok? erm… long time to go lor means! ~_~